awkward moments

i used to be quite close to a friend of mine during my high school days... until people started talking. i never realised that she was a lesbian, and was hitting on me. not until the gossips started anyway... since then, i am always on the brink. aware of any single moves, unintentional touch, unperceived politeness or simple gentleness that one provides unto me.. so much so that i think i might be a little over-sensitive at times.

maybe that is why some friends of mine turn to me, to seek my advice. to provide their "signs and symptoms" to clear their doubts.. i am no guru in this matter, but i can tell.. to some certain extent anyway. or i would rather call it instinct. self inflected instinct.















generally, there are two types of human display when an infliction towards another soul takes place ; the upright, obvious and confident one, and the other totally opposite shy and precarious personality. i usually prefer the latter type, because its harder to decipher the situation which makes the whole sheath more mysterious but may end up leading to serious miscommunications when wrong conclusions are made, while the former display of interest is harder to avoid or laid off when it happens.

yes, many people would say that if you do not confess, you will not know what would have happened... but have they ever considered the other side of the story? how can you reject someone politely and not being insulting, without ruining the whole relationship? what do you do when this kind of situation lands onto yourself? there is definitely no avoiding such incidents since love is blind.. but what do you do, when cupid strikes the wrong people? yes, a moment of awkwardness will definitely pursue... but for how long? how do you clear the air, and continue the great platonic friendship that you once had together, without having moments of doubt? can true friendship actually surface again, without those weird bits occuring?